The Anorexic Queen

So much misery is going on in our country. I just wish that everything will be alright between Manila and HK. A lot of outrageous protests are being carried out in HK due to the hostage drama that happened last Monday.

I felt furious with how our police handled it. They are such a huge disappointment bar none.

It was recently in the news that due to uprising anger by HK nation, it might affect 150,000 domestic workers. Repatriation is the worst thing that can happen to them.

Aside from all these, how can you not feel remorseful and truly sorry for those victims whose lives were lost in such a tragic event? Had it been Filipinos hostaged in HOngkong and killed we would over react just the same! Maybe even WORST.

Please do not downplay this event just because it was a ONe person FAULT that brought us down as a nation. We are all one in this tragedy and why would you say that it was nobody’s fault? The admittance of shame brought by the sheer incompetency of the police is very hard to do! But then what does pride got to do with it?

During that day, as much as I hate to say it, I feel blessed that my family is far away from Manila. Had it been a random stranger, God forbid, one of your family members are inside that bus, would you have felt and thought the same? That it can happen to any country? That we can forget about it after a day?

I am praying for all these to end. This misery. Why it doesnt seem to stop?

What’s the world going to be like without haters?

Tell me about it!

The queue right now is zero. All cases cleared. Whatta!

We have just migrated to Siebel We went Live on 03-Aug! Though there are some hiccups here and there it isnt as bad as it seems to what we imagined it to be.

My last day of work will be tomorrow and at last going home to Manila after more than a year!!!

I wish to make the most time out of it catching up with relatives and friends.

Now where do I go from here?

Sometimes I do Feel like a teenager.

I’m 30, for all I care I still act like I am 16!

Just when you needed your country’s own embassy to help you with your needs in a foreign country, turns out the so-called embassy puts on more added burden to you.

Honestly, I dont get how they process papers. Just for a mere stamp costs around 42.50. Verify the data being written by you in the FORM will cost you 20 dollars. Another 42.50 to authenticate the papers (Like DUH!) and another 72 dollars for buying an insurance they require which is totally redundant as what we paid for another insurance for the singaporean government. So they just wanted two insurances. Basically as it is just the same coverage (!) but this one is only honored by Phil Embassy. What the fuck!

Another stupid rule is that, if you dont get the certain OWWA and EXIT Pass you will not be allowed to enter your own COUNTRY! So they can just deny a Filipino coming home?! How stupid??!

All the OFW’s will need to spend their 2-3 fucking hours queuing for EXIT Passes each time they decide to go home to their native land.

Shall I say I am so lucky we were granted Permanent Resident status here? That doesnt exempt us from POOR service also.

The system as it IS has no IMPROVEMENT AT ALL. How they serve people and how they act because they are from government is sickening. You know how they behave right like “You are nobody so wait ur fucking turn”. Nobody cares how to MAKE a GREAT SERVICE improvement to PEOPLE. All they know they go to work DO their STINKING JOBS without ADDING a little bit of HELP to think HOW TO improve further with what they are DOING. Simply a matter of GIVING what THEY ARE PAID FOR!

So There’s nothing to hold on TO when you are in another country. PHILIPPINE EMBASSY is the WORST embassy in this WORLD. Crappy overpriced system that is still serving like in stone-aged!

Oh wait till you see how The Embassy crap looked like. The money-milking (shall i say institution) cannot even afford to renovate or rebuild the embassy shanty.

It looks a lot like a worn out canteen to me.

I guess I am allergic to “we need to talk”, “i need to tell you something”, “we will talk later”.

Everything that has something to do with TALK. I am very allergic.

I love chatting with people. But when it comes to serious discussions, sit-down talk etc…oh oh oh…expect me to just stare. Sit and listen.

I talk when I want to talk.

Not talk when someone wants to talk.

I guess I need a therapist.

Di ko mabilang sa daliri ko kung ilang beses akong wala sa mood nitong buwan na to. Nabibilang ko lang ang mga araw na nasa mood ako!

So hindi na mag wowork ang dahilan ko na PMS. Sobrang tagal ng PMS ko naman!

Maybe I am getting older and I am becoming more sensitive now to people. When you are close friends with anybody somehow your closeness becomes limitless. Whichever words you speak can be tolerated…but that doesnt give you the right to be RUDE because youre close! Excuse me, I am close to a lot of FRIENDS and I dont belittle word FRIENDS. I value it as being TRUE. Somehow, these people abuse the privilege.

I have snapped on a close friend of mine. Few days ago. Literally snapped. Good thing there was nobody there during our conversation. When it’s too much, snap them!

Next is, don’t be just a FRIEND because it’s a term commonly used for being together everyday?

Practice enough decency and not let the other people wait. Or say you cannot come! Such meetings you commit yourself and youre a no-show! Yes, i get pissed with such people. We are close so you can get away with it??

A lot of people waste time tagging people as ‘Friends’ but never really wanted to treasure the true meaning of IT. and that sucks! and im not overreacting!

SO pleaseeeee I dont need a lot of FRIENDS. i only need few who treasure it like I do!

Living in one roof, but leading separate lives.

This is one of the many Kris’ statement about her marriage. It has been like that in their home for 1 year. She said, it is hard to pretend that everything is going fine and that she’s happy with the way things are. Turns out, it’s the other way around.

This is a bit similar to my situation.

Enough said.

To Kris, you may not know me…as I have previously blogged about it, not all women are capable and empowered to get out from a bad marriage. Some just wanted to keep it altogether because of the kids. It is not selfish to be completely happy being single than being miserably married. — Which is Also for the kids.

Do you think it’s time to change my blog heading to Baker Queen? I am no longer Anorexic As you can see, I have achieved my desired weight after trying for 2 years!

Do you know the secret of gaining weight and maintaining it? Is to eat together with people who loves to EAT! Never eat alone and always have a stock of your foods inside your fridge!

Today I realized that I have been going on consistently with my baking stuff, although I was busy the past few weeks and the shop ‘closed’ for a while…I easily got back on track with some new recipes.

People enjoyed it and it’s definitely getting better. At first they thought how long am I going to sustain this…as you know, my activities are meant to be short-lived. Like having some flavor of the week or month activity.

Since I enjoy eating more now (unlike before!) baking is high on my activity list. LOL. I can bake the whole day especially when things are disastrous! Threw everything away and start again. I can get really really UPSET when things didnt go well. LOL.

Now, Im just waiting for the right time to practice baking whole cake and decorating it. I need to have an inspiration like someone close to me will be celebrating birthday and that will get me on my feet to ‘practice’ (how many upsetting days will that be).

As for now, I have zeroed in on my passions in Life!

More to come.